This is just a note. As of Monday afternoon, our raid for this week is without an OT and healers. I have one or two people I can still ask, but that doesn't guarantee a fill for the raids. I can myself change to OT or heals myself as is well known. And I know there are one or two people who can also switch to heals, if I ask them, but that doesn't fill up missing slots altogether. Tuesday is worse off then Wednesday, atm.
Also, getting tired of having to look for fills every week. Doing the best I can, but I know for me it's starting to become a mental blow. Last week when I thought I had a full group, and then I had people cancel last minute, it just ruined the night altogether. And frankly contributed to the fact that we couldn't even down one boss. -_- Please understand I don't hate anyone, or am angry at anyone. No one can help when RL happens. I don't hate any of you for RL being priority. And this week is just luck of the draw with people being on vacation and other things. But at the same time I don't feel I shoudl be struggling to keep a 10 man raid going. And that's what it's felt like for the last two months or so now. I'm trying to hang on, but doing this every week is just starting to hurt.
Where are my peeps? Are they even interested anymore? Are they tired? Does the schedule not work? Is our raid group just having bad luck in general? Is raid just a raid to you and so it doesn't matter who you raid with so long as you get a raid? How long am I suppose to hang on waiting to see if my guild can come together to keep up an Ishnu raid going?
And, hell, I hate coming on here being all depressed sounding because then I feel like I'm just trying to guilt trip you all. But that's not what I'm trying to do. But I am getting depressed about it, and I need to try and find an answer and a solution. Because raid is suppose to be fun, not depressing.
And this week, I have to find fills. . .again. *goes off to find those fills again*